Happy Friday World!
It's be a looooong long time since I've thought about popping on here and actually writing a blog, but these days, I feel like I need to. In the short version of this story, I'm currently unemployed and trying, fairly desperately, to find a new job.
For the first time since I was 15 years old, I didn't leave a job on my own terms. It has been a straight shot to my ego, for sure. I've never not been the breadwinner, the boat captain, the busy employed chick. This is a whole new thing for me, and I'm having a really hard time knowing where to begin.
Don't get me wrong, I've been applying to jobs like a madwoman, and I've been reaching out to friends and old coworkers like nothing else. But I don't know where to begin, for me. I've always had that existential, "Who Am I?" questions rolling around my brain. I have never been so far from an answer. I don't think I realized how hard I held onto my job title as the answer to that question. Or my advanced degrees as the answer to that question. So who am I now?
I often find myself thinking back to 2012/2013, peak Elizabeth finding Elizabeth time. I was in my early twenties, and things were just on their way up. There are days I wish I could go back there, but I can't. I need to figure out how to find that sense of wonder again. How to find the things I believe are worthwhile and help me find myself again?
I'm hoping, that by coming back to writing, my first love, that it will help me find a path, help me find things I enjoy and spark some opportunities in ways that I can't begin to imagine.
So, let's see what happens!
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